Starting Again

OK I have to do better today. The weight is starting to interfere with my movement. It’s hard to sit down. Going to the commode and getting into the van are the worst things that I have to do all day long.

So I want to try to train myself to take pictures of the food that I eat all day. But I forgot breakfast. LOL. It was two burritos from McDonald’s.

I’m going to try low-carb. And leave this open until I finish today so I’ll be back later for lunch.


From https://www.elyrics.net/read/h/heritage-singers-lyrics/for-those-tears-i-died-lyrics.html. Accessed 3/4/18.

This song was sung in church this morning. I know Jesus was speaking to me through it. He is with me! He has assured me that we will do this successfully together!

You said You’d come and share all my sorrows, You said You’d be there for all my tomorrows; I came so close to sending You away, But just like You promised You came there to stay; I just had to pray!

And Jesus said, “Come to the water, stand by My side, I know you are thirsty, you won’t be denied; I saw ev’ry teardrop when in darkness you cried, And I strove to remind you that for those tears I died.”

Your goodness so great I can’t understand, but, dear Lord, I know now that all this was planned; I know You’re here now, and always will be, Your love loosed my chains and in You I’m free; But Jesus, why me?

And Jesus said, “Come to the water, stand by My side, I know you are thirsty, you won’t be denied; I saw ev’ry teardrop when in darkness you cried, And I strove to remind you that for those tears I died.”

Jesus, I give You my heart and my soul, I know that without God I’d never be whole; Savior, You opened all the right doors, And I thank You and praise You from earth’s humble shores; Take me, I’m Yours.

And Jesus said, “Come to the water, stand by My side, I know you are thirsty, you won’t be denied; I saw ev’ry teardrop when in darkness you cried, And I strove to remind you that for those tears I died.”


Lunch was a club salad from Subway. I did take a picture… I just need to figure out how to post it here.

Supper was a salad with pork roast. I forgot the picture.

I was successful today. Thank you Jesus!

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Still Don’t Have It Togeter

Standing on the promises of Christ my King,
Through eternal ages let His praises ring,
Glory in the highest, I will shout and sing,
Standing on the promises of God.

Refrain

Standing, standing,
Standing on the promises of God my Savior;
Standing, standing,
I’m standing on the promises of God.

Standing on the promises that cannot fail,
When the howling storms of doubt and fear assail,
By the living Word of God, I shall prevail,
Standing on the promises of God.

Refrain

Standing on the promises I now can see
Perfect, present cleansing in the blood for me;
Standing in the liberty where Christ makes free,
Standing on the promises of God.

Refrain

Standing on the promises of Christ the Lord,
Bound to Him eternally by love’s strong cord,
Overcoming daily with the Spirit’s sword,
Standing on the promises of God.

Refrain

Standing on the promises I cannot fall,
Listening every moment to the Spirit’s call
Resting in my Savior as my all in all,
Standing on the promises of God.

From: http://www.cyberhymnal.org/htm/s/o/sotpogod.htm. Accessed 3/2/18.

06/18/2017: Day 37

Hello!

I’ve been enjoying summer and being too lazy to write. So I thought I’d check in and let you know things are OK. I still haven’t cheated! God is great!

One thing I realized yesterday as we did our shopping is that I am greedy. I used to be able to buy food or eat food to satisfy that “wanting” feeling. Now I cannot and it hurts.

There’s nothing I “want” that seems satisfying.

  • Clothes No.
  • Pocket Books no.
  • Electronics… well there’s the new Surface but realistically no money so… No.
  • Food… no.

Ugh. Greed is not something Jesus wants us to have in our life. It appears I’ve discovered another lesson. Be satisfied with what you have instead of always thinking you need something more. Sigh. Thank you, Jesus!

We had a carry-in for Father’s Day after church. I did good! Mostly, I’m really excited for Mike because he didn’t get any dessert! That’s a miracle. He really is trying to do good now.

The question I’m dwelling on is… If I say “ooooh” to food, wishing I could eat it plus acknowledging how delicious it would be, is that sinful lust? Or am I just doing a great coping measure because then I do not eat the food?

06/10/2017: Day 29

Didn’t write yesterday but I want to make sure I tell you about it. So it appears that I’m constipated. I can’t poop. I guess I am a little bit but then nothing really comes out. I finally called the cancer people to tell them about it. I’m figuring that it’s the estrogen blocking pill that’s making this happen. And sure enough, that is one of the side effects of the pill. So they’ve given me a light laxative: the generic brand of Senokot-S.

Mike wanted to take me to this place in Charlottesville that has free ice cream. He was hoping that ice cream would make me poop all of a sudden. I just started crying because I thought “I don’t want ice cream because that will make me have done something bad and I haven’t done anything bad as far as eating food after all these days.” I didn’t want to do that again. Isn’t it funny though that the thought of eating something good like ice cream got me upset because I didn’t want to break my good eating habits? I thought that was pretty good that I’m at that stage. But I was shocked that breaking it would bring me to tears.

But as of now there still no poop…